Yes I did,No I didn't

He tried to cheated me but i learned his lies from others. They are same age but I felt there's something diff between them.

Wc is like a big bro to me. And prince is still prince.

Yes I did. I did heard some rumours bout big bro. I was confused but i choose not to believe it in 2nd place. Afteral i did believe at da 1st place. I'm sorry big bro.

Yes I did. I did posted my feeling on my wall. I hope he will be a better man. Dont cheat on gurls anymore. He told me he like me, he treat me good, I'm silly and i thought it's true. Luckily a "saint" appear and stop me by telling me the truth that he is not a good guy. I should have know that. A young good looking musician, he got potential to fool around. But DON'T PICK ME. I'M NOT ONE OF THOSE GURLS WHO CAN SPEND THE NIGHT WITH YA. I trusted him but da truth hurts.

For me, 24 years old guy is not suitable for me.

OKAY. I gotta be clear here. To big bro WC HERO:

I never thought of why you will be soo mad bout this. Yes, I did heard da same thing bout you. but i thought it all over and I don't believe. I treat you as a boss from 3pm to 8pm. When I knocked off you are like a big bro to me. You said before, FREEDOM DANCE STUDIO IS LIKE A BIG FAMILY. I did ask myself, do i have a crush on this big bro? Finally da answer is no. I still love my ex. Just we are not fated to be couple.

I don't like to be misunderstood. So Hero dai gor.. don't think soo much k? Your comment made me pelik~=.=
I could not write my status so obvious untill i tag dat guy name.. I never know things will end up like this.

I can feel you are a good bro, how you treat ppl..everything.

My quote for WC HERO dai gor is : What ppl talk bout you i don't care. I know you are not.

I don't know you well but at least i won't trust 100% untill i really see it.

Yes ,your world is full of fantasy like him. i never judge you because you are nt him.
I saw how he treat me. I did nearly "eaten" by him coz of my sillyness.

I love freedom dance studio, I love this big family, I don't wish a stupid status which is nt talkin bout ya will change anything

PLS la~~~~~ my mind is full of  "wad da heck' now LOL!!!!

hmmm~~~

第一:
不喜欢有人故意认识我认识的人.

第二:
不要问我别人对你的看法,我不是他们

第三:
不要让我觉得你很危险,人格不简单

第四:
我告诉你,每个人都说我傻,我没有装

第五:
不要有目的的对我好

第六:
你多特别我不想知道

第七:
不要像别的女生一样,知道了还故意绑他们的心,这样很过分

第八:
不要一副很懂的样子来找话题,他们在和我说话,不是跟你

第九:
我没有非要跟你很要好的理由

第十:
我说完了.

:)

Keep everything.

 ♥THIS PIC !!


You can say i'm crazy for believing all those horoscope stuff..but it really works!


It's 3.11am now. Back from yam cha with WC,Uncle JAY,Shuffle,Bruce,JK and GNIE..plus others..haven get to know their name.


I admit my cantonese is stupid.I wish to learn it but when I see them smile..I wish i can be stupid always..


Still can recall my ex roommate will wan me to talk in cantonese to cheer her up. I'm willing too! ^^


They burst into laughter when heard me talking cantonese. LOL..


WC was quiet sometime and He's bad, keep asking me to translate bad words into cantonese..Kanasai.


miss the moment and laughter! xp


Jackson look sooo serious lor~ Thinkin of da step for their competition. All da best!!


I love u ELAINE CHIAM!! pretty and cute and pray for u faster get rid of the scar ya~


WC fetched me back. Before that teman he go wash car..

Am happy when he asked bout my private matter. He still remember..

He will leave here next year. To china. duration: 6months Mechanical Engineering.

Said will be back on July or August. Wonder what would everything change to by dat time.

Little bit sour feeling inside. Dunno why.

Thanks Xzendon Hon Kok Khong a gor sooooo ti tie! two days drink honey lemon tea le haha..arigato..die die also must get well lo!! ^^

Want to reply Leonance Ong's msg but it's too late for now. Sleep well! ^^

Wc asked me to settle Jor..haha..aiyo wei a she is just friendly ma..dont misunderstand her la..

Wc say uncle jay and me..I say i du1 uncle jay haha..then he ask why..IM MAD TO SAY THIS I KNOW AND I THINK IM JUST KIDDING : I don't wan him I want you..haha

He shoot me : shen jing bing~~ lol

Keep use leave kacau my face..

Don't like he say my eyes big look like kid..but I don't wan to be mature coz of him~

I WANT TO BE ME.

MATURE ain't related to me la~teehee!!^^

ok dats all. gotta sleep. 5 wake up ltr^^

Frenship.Liking.Feeling.Forgeting.

For friendship, actually i got much to say. Since da problem is solved. I will just pray that nothing would  happen between us again. I asked Michael, will you mind friendship? Sad over a frenship? His answer was simple.but make sense. "No.Frens should be happy when together.not vex bout this and dat."

Bravo michael. You are so cool sometime. haha~

Liking.
Yes! i like him. but I gotta stop before I know anything.
Monday:
Wc is back from his busy schedule! waited for him few hours in da studio.but he din come. He suppose to teach a Bboy class on monday.but i forgot da time.
Had a nice time with michael, learned breaking. I gotta work hard for this. As I said on my fb, "I don't mind da bruises, I don't mind da pain. I trained so hard because you're da best in wad I'm doin now."

8pm~ Took bus back hostel from GK. Little bit of disappointment coz din see wc. I tell myself, don't put heart on this. No guys worth my love. I will control myself. No worries! ^^

12am~ prepared to sleep but my phone rang! guess who! 'Wc siong' calling! XD..
askin me wanna yam cha or not. of coz yes, but im tired though~ Ar warh ask Gnie along.

12.30am~They fetched me. Wc's car, Uncle Jay driving.LOL

12.40am~reached studio. many guys there. Step in, Saw him, "Jenny!!!" shouted at me -.-
asked me wad is my tortoise shoe for..haha..studio things..

One thing surprise me~ He prepared a big bag for recycling empty bottles. ^^ god job wc. But i was "shooted" by him "ask u come work u come recycle~" he's smiling. Dont bother him~ >.<

Go down mamak stall, near Tbun there lor.

Ngam ngam wan sit down beside gnie. "wei, u sit beside me ler~" wc said.
said got things wanna ask me wo. Michael sit beside me. He got things wanna ask me
I chat with michael..like buddy lo haha..

Order "roti tampar goyang goyang" again. haha plus teh ais xp

finished eating,continue talking.

wc asked me did my ex find me..I said yes..I don't really wish to talk bout this.

He ordered roti bom and nasi lemak. Fat die him XD

Ask me to share roti bom v him but i'm full.. i wonder why i wont give him face when I knocked off. Maybe after work he's not my boss..haha..

I reject to share v him coz i takut gemuk. He still cut da roti bom in2 half and put on my plate. I pass back to him. then nasi lemak come dy.
"You wan which 1? must choose one!" keep wan me eat..then say me fat >.<

i eat one scoop nasi lemak punya nasi then say" i eat dy.."
He juz dun care still wan me eat..lol

da nasi lemak de egg is goyang goyang de!! i just simply point at da egg yolk. SIMPLY..

then i dun bother him and talk v michael. Da moment i turned back i saw him cut da egg yolk and put on my plate. Is this da so called "体贴"?
haha

Jenny dun think too much :)

Go CC, they wanna play left for dead.
I talked v michael saje.
Michael sit beside me, then wc said "You two talk can dy no need play.talk can dy~~~"

A fun night v them. Wc fetched me back and I dunnu why I choose to tell him my secret. He keep askin. And I feel dat my secret is safe with him. Na big deal la. cheese!!! xp

PS: Gnie said wc say to her "eh..Jenny and Michael very sweet hor?" wc hit gnie's head when gnie ask "why? u jealous a?" haha

Wc is busy again. Start from 28th. His schedule is FULL! hope da show is successful! Dope u Wc! XD

Feeling.
thought of him again, tears flow. AND I SHOULD STOP!
lookin at our photos, I smiled. but meanwhile i remind myself everything should end.

Forgetin.
Delete a file is easy. Still can restore back everything. How bout memories? Can I forget them by just deleting them from my brain hard disk? and never restore back.

PS: I din ignore ur calls.

GOOD NITE EVERYONE ^.^

These days~ =

First Day of Work.
Wc taught me wad should i do.
1. Open gate
2.Take out banner
3.Switch on da light
4.Open door
5.Masuk office open 3 switch.
6.Buka air-conditioner

Then, pray at back door dere ^.^ 保佑生意兴隆,多多人来报名!

First day i sweep da corridor and da door steps. 2nd day I sweep and mop da floor of studio coz too dirty-.-

19years..da first time i wash toilet..nice experience! haha..actually wc say can just splash water~but i wanna try da feeling of washing toilet. As I wish xp

Work almost done. 8pm wc arrived.
It's time for me to knock off

Friday
Ngam ngam open da studio saw sooo many empty bottle inside dustbin
wad a waste lorrr~~~
Pick up and squeeze them and put inside plastic bag. Leave a message ask them not to throw it away coz those collect bottle de uncle aunty might need them to earn extra income PEACE!! =p

Michael Alva arrived at 3 something.
We watch snake movie together.. soo soo sooo boring da movie. Then Gnie arrive.
We dance hip hop a while, then ask michael to teach us "breaking"

Wad Guys can do, Girls Why not?!!

haha~~ We learn Head Stand, Hand Stand, Chair frizz?? I dunnu da name~

Back to home~ Hand so pain..
Da next day dont have to work!! DOPE!! xp~~

Saturday
couldn't wake up coz body pain..maybe da first time practice breaking~dats y~~><
Suddenly received Jackson's message..lol

"Good job xp..."
I was like "huh?" wad is he talkin about..Maybe he sent da wrong msg..haha

Afterwards oni i realized he is praising me for keeping da empty bottles.. Yeah we chat..nice chat v jackson.

Wc was at outstation for show~ will be back on monday.

We message at night after he called and ask how's everything in studio. He is da guy who older me 5 years~ lol..i wish he is=p opps!! kidding! haha
Message till 3am..I  fell asleep.

Sunday
Woke up at 10am.
Went out at 11.20am
Reach Timesquare at 12.15 something

Shopping alone is quite nice..No need to wait for others, others no need to wait for u, when tired can sit, when energetic just shop!!

I bought 5 items for RM300

TREAT- designs from local designers

Shop for formal clothes.
Yellow top RM59.90
Slacks RM79.90
Belt RM15.90
High heel shoe RM25

Total: RM180.70

Then I bought a M size Baby Milo Jacket HOT RED colour!! RM99.90

LOVE THEM!

Broga Hill Picz xp

Broga Hill Trip!! DOPE xp

Da gurls: Jenny and Gnie

Da Quote: We DEFEATED Broga hill!!!!

PS: Waitin for sunrise

Da guys: Wc,Ar warh, Michael Alva, Shuffle, others :)

Technical prob: there might be some repeated photos. Cheeze!! =p

xp

Loads xp

There's loads of things I wanna say~

1st~ Broga Hill Trip

Venue: Broga Hill

Da Team: Freedom Studio Kaki

Da Leader: WC SIONG

OK, Wc i gotta praise u here, u are a good leader xp

2am- Jessie JC pick me up at hostel.Thanks to her and her bf

2.10am- Arrived at Gnie house, saw vivian with her =)

2.15am- Arrived at Freedom Dance Studio but da door was locked! OMG~

We thought da trip was cancelled, jessie called kenny kentz to double confirm,they are outside Tbun internet cafe. Mamak Stall.

We sat there, chit chat..waitin for da "drivers" to arrive.

Befriend with Jorjor chin, VK, Jac there. So fun! especially VK. Cold joke QUEEN~LOL

finally we set off, 4 of us follow "little chili"'s car. She was pretty yet hot..so we named her little chili.

I was tired, but cant stop laughing in da car. They are way too funny.

But i gotta charge battery for better performance durin mountain climbing

5am? I had forgot da time. We reached. Very Dark!!

We go two by two. Me and JOrjor Chin ^^

VK and Jac in front of us.

To reach da first peak is so diff. I nearly asthma. Dont wish to trouble others so i try to control my breath.

Luckily. I reached safely. BUT!! Jorjor was not feeling well ><

We take k of her for quite a while..luckily her temperature was back to normal. Gnie wish to climb to mountain top, so do I. But VK they all deside to stay v Jorjor Chin. 

Out of a sudden Wc said: I wan go climb dy who wan follow?

I look at him, he look at me then i look at Gnie.

Final decision: LET'S CLIMB!!

Wc take k of us all da time. So secure when he is around~~ xp

Funny stuff happen along da journey. 

One word to describe Wc will be :GENTLEMAN!! 

*round of applause!!*

We reached mountain top and took some group pictures. xp So nice.

I saw da first sun rise in my life without da one i love by my side.

LOL..who's da one I love? Nobody. xp

Sunrise thingy was great for those couple, but it's great for me to spend my first time sunrise moment with da big gang =p

Da sun was warm, gentle, bright and silent. Just like da first love we felt inside our heart. 

We took couple of pictures. Especially Gnie and I..haha..so fun!

Dawn was almost over. Bright sunlight started to strike da ground. We decide to return to 1st peak.

Wc always walk in front of us. To hold us when we wanna get down da steep rock. I was clumsy and blurr~

He walk behind me and grab my bad whenever he saw I was about to fall.

Gnie helped much to..She is so "man" haha

Wc play a prank on me~ Scare me from behind~ leg shiverin lo~~~

kill him xD

We are da first team to arrived at da spot where we started our journey.

Then we went for breakfast, Wc is da first to go back home to sleep.

Broga Hill trip, one word to describe will be : DOPE!!!! xp

2nd: Yam Cha with Wc, Jackie, Shuffle Tam wei Chian.

Reached hostel bout 11 to 12pm. After a nice bath,I sleep like a pig.Till night ^^.

My new roommate was supposed to move in todae. but she haven reach. I sleep till 9pm night,then message her. She said she will be reaching soon.

She reached. LOL, my ex floormate! I recognize her..Welcome home!

Her family was good~Talk with a mum. ^^PEACE~~

On my facebook. Wc posted something on my wall "Sorry late approve"

lol~nothing to me la..He's da busy man haha

My line was not good. he thought i offline. Then i saw he sent me a message on fb. Asking me whether wanna join him yam cha and he give me his hp no.

Well,I thought other students might have followed too so i ikut saje.

Mana tau ada saya seorang student je~~

He came hostel to fetch me.

Nice talk v him. Feel very free when he is around haha. As a fren lar xp.

We yam cha at Jalan Ipoh. The mamak stall uncle dunnu wad is Roti Tampar Goyang Goyang.

Wc laugh when he saw me keep explaining roti tampar to da mamak uncle. lol.

kanasai><

yam cha tii 2.30 am..sooo sooo sooo tired~

but im prepared for da next day! DATE WITH ABBY BOON!! xp

3rd: Sg.wang with lovely sista Abby!

We meet at Mcd~but we had lunch at Pontian Wan tan Mee.

Realized she was not happy, but she dun wanna admit. So i stop askin her.

We chit chat a lot xp

Half way I receive Wc's msg. askin me wanna join dinner ltr or nt.

Abby told me some sorts of story, ask me dun trust a person 100%.

of coz i will listen to her. So I ask my Ah gu to acc me along since she put me aeroplane for broga hill trip. =p

bought two clothes, one Tsuya Tsuya BB cream and Moisture base. 

Total expenses: RM175 x.x

Well, we live once. so juz do wadeva dat is rite and happy.

Best example: Shopping!!

Say goodbye at 5 something. I take bus back and Abby take monorail then change KTM. kesian her~~

7pm I reached hostel. 7:15pm-dinner with Wc.

He told me got 3 ppl. end up just him, me and annie. Annie say if she didnt come there will be juz wc and me.

lol...... -.-

8pm- Bboy class

instructor: Wc

Saw ar warh them. DOPE!

4th: Trial job at freedom dance studio

I can say this job is neither easy nor hard. moderate lar~~

and I was confirmed to be da admin 

next day I will start work.

Salary: RM6 per hour.

Venue: Freedom dance studio

Time: 3pm to 8pm

Days: 3 days.

Tuesday Wednesday and Friday.

Calculate salary:

Tuesday 3pm - 8pm

total hours worked: 5 x RM6 = RM30

Wednesday 4pm - 8pm

t.h.w : 4 x RM6 = RM24

Friday 3pm-8pm

t.h.w : 5 x RM6 = RM30

RM84 / week so one month can earn bout RM300 lar.

Sat and Sun worked at Watson. Under Biotech company. Even is juz a promoter but dats a nice experience for me!

I will stop here and write a new post!

It's tired to read such a long article. 

Cheese!! xp

I love the way they lie

 
    http://www.youmaker.com/

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way they lie, I love the way they lie 

I received a call from my mum,
She told me bout something,
which failed my day.
I dont wish to go that place.
anyone save me please..

It've been years since i'm brought into this,
and I never got a chance to save myself.
Their lies were beautiful,
make me hurt but I still love them.


They will say: "It will work for this time..Just go and pray hard."
I prayed,but nothing gain.
Hell yeah,i gain tears.


Just gonna stand there and watch me burn,
but it's alright because i love the way it hurts...


I just`want a normal life.


I never blame anyone for this but myself.

What can i do now...

"Gotta Go my own way"

从何说起

想逃出寂寞的残绕,

想倾诉不可公开的内心世界,

想要此刻有温暖的拥抱,

想停止让心跳忐忑的事实,

想催眠现实的世界,

想逃离无人了解的城市,

想把疑惑卷进漩涡,

想躲在只有自己的黑洞.

你看我,

在微笑,

再看我,

我在哭.

你不懂,

我的烦恼,

跟谁说,

也一样无可救药.

想控制,

手里能捉住的一切,

但我知道,

控制以后,

暴风一样会来袭.

选择是什么,

我不知道,

我没有责怪,

是因为哪个人对我有恩.

你不懂,

我想表达什么,

是因为,

我不想被了解.

因为就算你懂得,

也不能帮到什么.

我快崩溃了,

我还在忍着,

那个他在远方,

我想依靠但知道不可能.

我知道你爱我,

但爱能持续多久.

这个时候的我,

没有人的陪伴,

快疯了.

你为我,

付出很多.

对你是什么感受,

我很懵懂.

不怪你走,

已释怀你走,

其实这个时候,

你懂我需要什么.

你想给我,

但给不了.

所以我,

不会跟你要.

一个人承受,

好比等待一个人来安慰更讲究,

每一次哭泣的时间你错过,

我也不想从新说心理感受.

你过好你的生活,

我依然是我,

得空不得空

没必要过问太多.

最后,

谢谢你爱我.

希望这份热诚可以依旧,

只要我能习惯伤心时你不能陪我,

就行得通.

不想放弃

“如果你因为某些原因，不能实现理想，你会怎么做？”

让我在这里，和你们分享她的故事。

她的名字，叫瑜稹。她不是孤儿，尽管她不知道亲生父母在哪。

她很幸福，因为遇到了一个一生为她付出，为她劳碌，为她奔波，为她笑与哭的妈咪。

小时候就知道自己的身世，瑜稹没有觉得自己被忽略，这个家像冬天的棉被，让人温暖。

瑜稹希望可以不长大，希望小手永远那么小，让他们牵着她。

那一年，瑜稹学会叫妈妈，

那一年，瑜稹住进那个家，

那一年，瑜稹哭红脸颊，

那一年，瑜稹不想回家，

那一年，瑜稹慢慢长大，

那一年，瑜稹开始害怕，

那一年，瑜稹快放弃了，

但心里，却对着自己责骂。

“我是瑜稹，我不服输，如果我放弃了，将来谁来养她。”

“我真的努力过的，但被他们夺走了。”

“没关系，不是喜欢的学校也可以的，你们别再哭了。”

“妈，不要怪自己好吗？”

瑜稹心理有好多秘密，想说出来但必须封锁的秘密。

因为是被领养的，她不能轻易拿到功名，他的家人都怪自己，怪自己把瑜稹害得不能安心念书。

虽然家人一开始犯了错，但那时他们为了保护瑜稹而犯下的错，所以瑜稹心里明白，没什么怪不怪的。

很多年了，瑜稹进进出出同样的地方，得到同样的答案，看见同样的失望。

担当瑜稹擦掉眼泪时，怪罪自己的母亲却流眼泪了。

“我不要去孤儿院...妈...你跟他们说好不好？我不要去孤儿院..赫....我不要..."那一年，瑜稹是这样哭的，但哭得更伤心的，是坐在地上，不知所措，养育他的两个母亲。毫无血缘关系，却比任何人更害怕失去瑜稹，瑜稹看到的。

瑜稹的成绩，可以很好，可以很差。

但那一年，他为了去某所理想的学院，努力地读。

他考到了理想的成绩，要进那所学院已经不是问题。

当一切都准备好的时候，

问题出现了。

瑜稹的状况，不能出国。

“妈...真的没办法了吗？考试好也没办法了吗？”瑜稹含泪问着。

“对不起，妈妈也不懂为什么会这样。在这里读吧，以后有机会，在出国吧。”

对瑜稹来说，这是打击。

也让瑜稹明白，有些是不是努力就能实现的。

瑜稹不甘心，不服气，任性，哭泣。

他消沉，没毅力了。

不管试几次，结果不会改变的。

“如果你因为某些原因，不能实现理想，你会怎么做？”

应该放弃吗？

“不行，不能让他们得逞”

应该失望吗？

“失望但不能消极”

应该生气吗？

“生气，所以以后成功也不会留在这里”

应该自暴自弃吗？

“不行，只有我可以救自己。”

应该怎么做？

“做好我能控制的事，其他的，迟点再说”

应该继续梦想吗？

“要！我要离开这里所以不能放弃！”

应该怎么跟妈妈说？

“妈，我们一起加油吧！我爱你^^"

这世上很多事，我们不能控制。发生了，有些人面对，有些人逃避。

瑜稹现在面对的，是一项艰难的挑战。

一个足以毁掉她前途的麻烦。

听听瑜稹怎么说

“不要放弃，他们越是要我们失败，我们越是要站起来！加油！”

=完=

最近报章上看到很多人因为功名的事不能出国，不能申请登记。

有这些烦恼的人你们要记得，不能放弃哦！

在斜坡的路上你会很辛苦，但是每一个斜坡到了高处，就会有一段路，带你走向轻松自在的未来，那条路就是下坡。所以在你们还没找到人生中的下坡时，千万要继续往上爬，把你在走着上坡时的泪于汗擦干，再用微笑迎接快要到的顶端。

顶端是你痛苦后的栖身所，

下坡是你辛苦后轻松的奖励。

你可以输，但不可以放弃噢！